John the Baptist humbly enlightened. “Pride is always going to be there,” I confessed. “You need to dig deeper to get at the root to improve,” Fr. Dan gently exhorted. A few phrases immediately jumped out in the Litany of Humility: the fear of being wronged, the fear of suffering rebukes, and the desire of being loved.

Scripture and the saints provided additional wisdom. “If we were truly humble, nothing would change us... If someone were to criticize us, we would not feel discouraged...” (St. Mother Theresa) “Perfect love casts out fear.” (1 John 4:18) My love and that of others was not perfect. Desiring to be loved imperfectly by looking to other people and things wouldn’t satisfy.

The digging uncovered a layer of insecurity. Coupled with my sensitive nature, I was very frail. If I did not desire this earthly love and was completely empty, only then could God fill me with His perfect love. “I am who I am in the eyes of God, and nothing more.” (St. Francis) My security should come from knowing that I am a priceless (worth dying for) beloved daughter of God. Jesus, help me renounce my pride and be filled with You. Replace the root of my insecurity with the root of your love. “… that Christ may dwell in your hearts... that you, rooted and grounded in love … may be filled with the fullness of God.” (Eph 3:17-19)

Written by Karen Molvar